Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Too many sleepless nights.....

I have been having so much trouble sleeping over the past few nights, I believe insomnia is starting to kick in once again....But then again the nights I do manage to get into my bed, the moment I close my weary eyes hoping for a nice relaxing dreamless sleep (although I cant complain if its a good dream), but even this is not allowed to me for when I sleep....I dream....And when I have Dreams I dream of the Glory of the Ummah, thingz that must be done....that WILL be done.....And when I sleep I have Nightmares.....they are of forbidding doom that can or has come...most of them I dare no write down for they have left me close to death...loss of color in my face, drenched in cold sweat, gasping for breath....as I contemplate on these I realize some of these nightmares...parts of them are true.....I had been such a cruel person to my enemies....even the slightest sign of disobedience from allies and friends to insolence from anyone would be punished....the severity depending on my mood...this is who I was...I look at it I would never...never go back to it.....I was born Muslim, I will live a Muslim, and I will Die a Muslim....these words are easy to say but they hard hard to keep, but keep them I shall;to my dying day for I am a Muslim.....

There are those out there who think they have things on me...how wrong they are....it makes me chuckle thinkin how they think there smart but really they don't realize I planted that rumor about mme to get info who is talkin about me, I would go to the extent where I would tell some1 to call ppl up give them a story n they would cry, yell w/e it took to convince those fools.....they don't realize the steps I take to make sure my movements are covered and ahhhh I could go on with this but it would take much to long...and why give out my secrets???.....to some I am alot more than they think I am....for example does a skinny, short, person who doesn't like talking to much such as myself post any threat or interest???.....many think no...but the wiser.....well they are wise after all........contemplate

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