Am I Blind?.....A Dream?

I search for personality and I look for things I cannot see for I am a blind man seeing. Love and peace flash through my mind for I am a blind man seeing; pain and hate is all I find. I find no hope in nothing new and I never had a dream come true. Lies and hate and agony; through my eyes that's all I see....for i am no longer blind.

I slept badly once again all the stress is gettin to me from school 2 crew, all of it keeps me awake by body screams within in me wantin 2 rest itz tired n broken, my heart is heavily burdened wit greif and sorrw for the ones I have lost, but my mind is wide awake seachin for possiabilites and awnsers....everything is spinnin in my head like that of a tornado. At one moment im facing down my enemy and giving him a warning, the words are spoken softly but they ware layed down wit Iron....."may you live in interesting times", his eyes go wide, face turns pale, his mouth drops all this i catch at a glimpes of the cornoer of my eye before i turn on my heel and stroll away. My brah asks me if i think he will oppose me "la, if he knows whats good for him he wont, he mite even join us for enemies can become freinds just as freinds can become enemies"....then im in another situation, im sittin wit mahmoud and hes teeling me how my weakness is that i care too much....ive torn my heart open, my freind (i shall not name the individual) have sewin it shut, i look at my scars and realize the past is real n he may be right...then itz spins again...im playin bball wit youcef, nawid, n muhammed. Im playin 1 on 1 wit nawid i somehow fall or trip n i scrape my knee badly im on the ground fightin the fire in my leg, nawid goes n scores a goa n comes 2 me n asks if im ok a memory flahes bak where my officer tells us all new recuits at the end of the training sessain on the first day that 'there is no pain where strength lies' so i ignore the pain i get up n i say im okay and i repeat the words ive learned n we play.........the sun rises its light shines open my face promising a new day...........