Ya-Aisha

She lay in a pool of blood, gasping for breath, each breath weaker than the other, she looked down at me reaching down grasping my arm.....

"little one its that you" she asks
"Yes its...its me" falling to my knees I grasp her hand, my vision blurred by my tears....
"Is my Billu crying? didnt he always say crying is a sign of weakness?" she says smiling
"Im not strong, im nothing....."
"Cute one listen to me, if we are strong our strength will speak for us, but if we are weak words wont help. So be strong Billu....be strong"
"Ai.."
"No, I know what you are going to say, so im going to tell you this, It is easy to dodge your responsibility Bilal, but you cannot dodge the consequences of dodging your responbility. You have to live and go on, and be strong....."
"NO! No you cant leave me! you said you would never leave me!....you...you promised" the last words I say in a whisper
"Oh Billu, my sweet Billu do you think im going to truly leave you" I shake my head not knowing, "Whenever you are in trouble are ever need help look in here" she raises a finger and lays it above my heart "Ill always be here just ask and listen I will whisper back"

"Aisha?" she fading, everything is fading, my world is spinning. I wake up by cat by my side, standing up I stride to my closet and throw on a robe and walk on to my porch. Hands on the rails the wind gently blowing my rope I wait for the sun to rise my cat comes and sits by my side, it is dark and cloudy outside where is the sun?

I remember my reaction when I was in the hospital, Even to this day I remember it is like a dream, a dream that I am holding on to but it will never come true...My sister coming back to me.

Nothing is more dangerous than an enemy with nothing to lose.....which is what I have become"
The sun shall not rise today.....