A part of me died last night.... ~i'm tired of being what you want me to be feeling so faithless lost under the surface~ I'm feeling so empty ~I don't know what you're expecting of me put under the pressure of walking in your shoes every step that i take is another mistake to you i've become so numbi can't feel you there become so tired so much more aware~

"The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.The one who kneels to the Almighty can stand up to anything."

A Simple Hello...

I have always felt sympathy and compassion for those that I see at school walking all alone, for the ones who sit in the back of the room while everyone looks and makes fun of them or just simply ingnores them. At first I never did anything about it. Guess I figured that someone else would. I did not take the time really to think about the depth of their pain. Then one day I thought, what if I did take a moment out of my busy schedule to simply say hello to someone without a friend or stop and chat with some eating by thereself. And I did, I do. It feels so good to brighten up someone else's life. How do I know one would ask? Simple, for years ever since elementary I was in their shoes...until the day came a simple hello from a stranger changed my life forever.....


So I ask you as a Friend, a Brother, a Stranger....To take time out, I know we are all busy...places to go ppl to see, of your life and to say hello for you never know what it will lead to.....

K umm where to start???

Well Ramadan is not going on that well...I am struggling to wake up at a time that in any other time of the year I have no trouble waking up.....ummm actually I just going to leave off on this topic there is just too much to it......

School, again just going to leave off too much stress, 3 exams next week!
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Really just so many emotions going through em I do not know how to control, explain or anything....:S

There is so much I wanted tot write on my blog but never had the chance and now here I am with the chance to write it all down...but I cannot recall anything I had wanted to write...Fleeting thoughts......

Wow this is rather a pointless entry......



~My tea's gone cold,
I'm wonderin why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain drops on my window and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad~

k weirdest dream...so weird that I am hesitant to tell it but I have to just get it out cuz it will not leave my head!

okay here it goes.....

Im at meyokumin (my elementry and favorite place to play bball) shooting some hoops....Anyways ill just skip all this n get to the main part k so basically I end up playing ball with all the random ppl I hae played basketball with, so a whole bunch of white boys, lil kids, 2 native kids, some afro-american guys, n about 5-6 azn guys.....n then watching us play are all the random gurlz I have ever talked to, n they where wearing what they where when I spoke with them...so alot of arab, white, black, n azn, and a couple of brown gurls. What the wore varied some I spoke to at the beach, some in school, work, mall, wherever I went.....and ya I don't really recall the rest at the moment but yea....as I have sayed before really weird

If you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d's
oh why do i live this way(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzie
oh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

in the club on the late nite feelin right
lookin tryin to spot somethin real nice
looking for a lil shorty i noticed
so that i can take home (i can take home)
she can be 18 18 wit a attitudeor 19 kinda snotty actin real rude
but as long as you a thicky thicky thick
girl you know that its on (you know that its on)
i peep somethin comin towards me on the dance floor
sexy and real slow (hey)
sayin she was peepin and i dig the last video
so when nelly can we go?
how could i tell her no
her measurements was 36 25 34
feel iti like the way you brush your hair
and i like those stylish clothes you wear
i like the way the light hit the ice and glare
and i can see you boo from way over there

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

face a body front and back, don't know how to act
without the vouchers on the boots shes bringing nothin back
you should feel the impact shop on plastic where the sky's is the limit
and them haters can't get past that
watch me as i gas that four dot six range
watch the candy-paint change every time i switch lanes
it feels strange now
makin a livin off my brain instead of caine now
i got the title from my momma put the whip in my own name now
damn shit done changed now
running credit checks with no shame now
i feel the fame now come oni can't complain no moreshit i'm the man now
in and outta my own town(i'm getting pages)
out of new jersey from courtney b
tellin me about a party up in n y cand can i make it damn right
i'll be on the next flight
payin cash first class sittin next to vanna white

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

check check
yo i know somethin you don't know
and i got somethin to tell ya
you won't believe how many people straight doubted the flowmost said that i was a failure
but now the same mutha fuckaz askin me for dough
and i'm yellin i can't help ya
yo nelly can we get tickets to the next show
hell naw you for real

hey yo now that i'm a fly guyand i fly high
niggas wanna know why why i fly by
but yo its all goodrange rover all wood
do me like you should
fuck me good suck me good
we be them stud niggas
wishin you was niggas
poppin like we drug dealers
simply cuz she bug mackin
honey in the club me in the benzi see a cutie tellin me to leave wit you and your friends
so if shorty wanna knock we knockin to this
and if shorty wanna rock we rockin to this
and if shorty wanna pop we poppin the crisshorty wanna see the ice then i ice the wrist
city talk nelly listen
nelly talk city listen
when i fuck fly bitches
when i walk pay attention
see the ice on the wrist
niggas starin at the glist
honeys lookin no they wish
come on boo gimme kiss c'mon

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

Girl, he simping (Simpin)
I walk up in the club with a limpin (Limpin)
God listen, what you gonna do, with this pimpin
What you gonna do, with this pimpin
Girl, I'm a call ya (Call ya)
Later on tonight or tomorrow ('Morrow), now follow
What you gonna do, with this baller
What you gonna do, with this baller

I don't wanna know....

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't mean to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Baby taught you better then me (taught you better then me)
Then why you fall asleep (why you fall asleep)
Shove 'em off and stay, what you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me (Stay away from me baby)

......

Somewhere in this darkness
there is a light I can't find
maybe I'm just blind
to see what's in front of my eyes
I don't want to lie
there's an other world inside of me
that you may never see
there's secrets in this life
I can't hide
and I just need some time
to patch me up inside
but I can't take me
inside and hide
everything I am
I can't be anymore
and even if I could be me
I would give up everything
if only for your good
I'll say goodbye to all my troubles
I'm coming closer to the edge
kiss me while I'm still alive
kiss me while I kiss the sky
let me die on my own terms
and now I'll follow my own way
maybe try to life on an other day...

Taste of Edmonton...Me n Tunnu

K days pics/ n some from a Taste of Edmonton

Born to be hated, dying to be loved

As one might have noticed I have been putting all these pics up just to get my mind off of things, but it seems some of these pics just bring back those painful memories....I am fasting yet I'm so stressed and angry.

I have not slept since the night before and quite frankly I am not tired at all, weird is it not? As I type I am getting ready for the funeral of one of my best friends, a friend whom I have known since childhood.

The first day of Ramadan and already some much has happened, makes you shudder to think what else is in store.....

The Three Thousand outside the gates of Qohor

Submission

Jaqen H'ghar

The sweet taste of revenge

House Greyjoy

Lord Commander of the Nights Watch

Paying the Iron price

Crows eye

The Queen of Love and Beauty

The Black fish

In search of prey

House Stark

House Lannister

House Stark

Will justice prevail?

The Tower of Joy...in sad times

Stark vs. Lannister

Cruel fate

The Fields of Fire

This is how I roll....

Summer camp

This reminds me of you Mahmoud :P

Me against the World

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
Sitting alone, wondering, wishing
Dreaming.
You laugh and mock him
But do we not all wonder, wish and dream?

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
Sitting alone, crying and breaking
Alone.
You see him. Do you care?
Why dont you comfort others when you want comfort in your tears.

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
With others, but another person.
Laughing and mocking others
Still alone.
You know he is putting up a wall. Do you not care?

That guy. There.
Do you see him?
Still alone. Empty, feeling nothing.
Broken.
You still dont help. Do you not care?

That guy, there.
He used to love, he used to feel, he used to care
What happened? He's now like you.
Doesnt care.

That guy, there.
Do you know him?
I do.
That guy there,
Thas me...

Breaking my habits

I don't want to be the one battles always choose
Because inside I realize that I am the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I have come this way
I know its not alright

~Linkin park

Do you know?

Do You know what is like to make yourself feel pain
Just trying to ease the hurting inside
Do you know what its like to put yourself through hell
Just so a few secrets you could hide

Do you know what its like to hurt so much
That every morning and you just wish to die
Do you know what is like to get home at night
And have nothing to do but cry

Do you know what is like to give your heart to someone
And have it thrown back at you
Do you know what is like to have a broken heart
That just seems like it can never mend

Do you know what it feel like to get a hug
From someone who really means it
Do you know what it feels like to not get that one hug
It kills you beyond mortal understanding

Do you know what its like to be so alone
And all you need is a confidant, a friend
Do you know what its like to hurt so much
That you just want to make it all end

Do you know what its like to be standing there
On the crossroads of life and death
Do you know what its like to make the decision
To take your last and final breath

Do you know what I go through every day
No! How I feel you dont have a clue
Dont even try to understand my life
Because I refuse to be judged by you

Garfield

Garfield