Reminiscing.....

I....

2007-12-09T19:26:00.000-08:00

Didn't mean it
When I said you didn't love me, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid,
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that
I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me "If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface "I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you in my life,

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better

....

2007-05-28T09:31:00.000-07:00

Within the spreading darkness,
we exchanged vows of love
Because I must not let anyone stand in the way of our love
The future is reflected in the fruit
I live my dream
The end that everyone desired,
Within the spreading darkness,
we exchanged vows of love
I must not let anyone stand in the way of our love
Someday, I will show you
How much you really mean to me

I saw dreams that no one else could have seen,
and threw awaything that was not of use to me
Unyielding thoughts reside within my heart
Were still in the gorge of reality and idealism.
Even if my feet get caught in the shackles of sacrafice
My overflowing urges cannot be repressed
My heart's yearning is to strong
Lies and deinals
all kinds of negativity
Im not weak enough to be captured by them
A trickster who knows no solitude

Never Again...

2007-05-23T10:25:00.000-07:00

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

Random

2007-05-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

Well it has been sometime since i last posted something on here..........

Well here it goes....

Hmm highlights...highlights.....

Ooooo k umm me, ma sis and my father were cleaning out the backyard shed while my mother and lil bro were gardening out front. I was putting some pipes at the side of the house when I noticed this big...no HUGE dogs come in through our door (fence), my initial reaction was 'dogs oooo i love dogs!" but then there was two and there were huge, and they were walkin towards me so excitement turned to omg omgomgomg....but these dogs (they were those dogs that look like Beethoven) soooo nice I named this Francis and Frankie. It was funny seeing myt mother and sister book in behind the fence door, and my little brother running inside and barricading the door :p, and then you see me playing with them...i love those dogs......

Then there was our first soccer game....dang ummm i was so nervous because I have not played soccer for about 2yrs. So I kept fidgeting and moving around and what have you...umm yeah I did horrible that game I could not think.

The second game I think I did rather well...that is until I heard the after game speech and stuff, then i was like guess i did not do all that great....

J bdayparty....what a fob :P

K ummm I can not think of anything else at the moment so....

Oh and the halaqa on sats by bro momin are going on again. I love these they gettin you thinking and argh soo much to it :D

Over you

2007-05-13T11:49:00.001-07:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

....

2007-05-01T16:48:00.000-07:00

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet

lovin it...

2007-04-18T11:56:00.000-07:00

So hot, hot
It's the S the L the I the M
Let me tell you what I wanna do
Let me show you that I'm feelin' you
Wanna sex, wanna ride with you
Wanna taste, wanna put my lips all over you
Can't get enough of you
Always taken of you
So sweet, so very wet
So good, girl you make me sweat
Girl I'm talkin' 'bout

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

I never thought that I would be
So addicted to you
On top, underneath, on the side of you
Better yet baby inside of you
Love the way you're just flowin down
And I can feel it all around
In the front, in the back of you
Ooh I love the taste of you
Girl you know what I'm talking about

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Won't stop girl you know I can't get enough
Wanna taste it in the morning when I'm waking up
Like peach cobbler in my stomach when I eat it up
Got your legs around my neck so I can't get up
See the boys 112 we from the A' (A' - shorty we don't play)
And when it comes to eating peaches, shorty we don't play
So all the ladies in the house if your peach the shit
Put your hands in the air represent your clique

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that
I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that
I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Oh girl I need it
I gotta have it
It's always on my mind
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream
I like it in my car
Or even in my bed
Or baby on the stairs
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream

Oh girl I need it
I gotta have it
It's always on my mind
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream
I like it in my car
Or even in my bed
Or baby on the stairs
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

...

2007-04-13T11:02:00.000-07:00

Billu: Soooo tunnu your ipod died......seems like everything dies around you, thas what 20 things now??
Tunnu: umm ipod, phone charger, microwave, and computer...there's the list if u must know!

Animal I Have Become

2007-04-13T10:50:00.000-07:00

I can't escape this hell

So many times i've tried

But i'm still caged inside

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal

(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself

(I can't escape myself)

So many times i've lied

(So many times i've lied)

But there's still rage inside

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

Somebody wake me from this nightmare

I can't escape this hell

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

Help me believe it's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal

(This animal I have become)

I don't wana know...

2007-04-13T10:46:00.000-07:00

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't mean to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Baby taught you better then me (taught you better then me)
Then why you fall asleep (why you fall asleep)
Shove 'em off and stay,
what you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me (Stay away from me baby)

Random

2007-04-05T10:22:00.000-07:00

Eric: Clam down your funny but not that funny

AR: Just becuz I said "nice shirt" that does not make me gay

Jamie: I still cannot believe your are gurl! I always thought of your name as a guy name, damn you light skinned ppl all your names are unisex now aren't they?????

J: Congrads you finally learned how to say 3 in arabi

Tunnu=Random

Maria: Soy la oveja extraviada

Nawid: Honestly ever since you got your cell you have been harder to get a hold of

Laila: You need to get a guy...bigtime:P

David: U are sooo gay! admit it!....but don't worry I won't tell anyone

ARaz: I want my jacket back

Hafsa: ummm can I get my magazines back???

2007-03-30T12:19:00.000-07:00

sooo tunno almosed died today cuz she can't walkin heels

I'm good without you

2007-03-28T11:23:00.000-07:00

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good

Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good

With or without you

If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good

Say what you do for me than, I'm good

You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good

With or without you

I'm good without you

Random

2007-03-27T11:49:00.000-07:00

Sooo I meet laila's cuzin and ummmmmm....wow! just wow, she has an amazing personality and is well how shall I put this??? mind blowing? and yeah thats my story....

Ooooo speaking of which what the hell am I supposed to do with you tunnu? everytime you are around somehtin it breaks!....cell fone charger (which to this day I fail to grasp how the hell that works out), microwave, fridge, computer....whats next? :P

And J hmmmm it seems that after I taught you how to say 'crazy' in arabic you do not want to learn anyhting else cuz you think thats all you need to know :P .....oh and lol work on saying 3 in arabic!

Laila.....hmmm I guess I spoke of you enough in the first paragraph don't you think? :P

Maria....hmmm I gave u a lil shout :D

Yogee....no comment :P (cuz I know how much you love pink)

hmmmm who am I missing?

Buttons

2007-03-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

Here's a lil somthing somthing for you Maria, It's your favorite song! :P
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I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Typical
Hardly the type I fall for
I'm liking the physical
Don't leave me asking for more
I'm a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what
I want and (Want and)
What I want to do is spring this on you (On you)
Back up all of the things that I told you (Told you)

You been saying all the right things all along
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree '
Cause the love you said you had
Ain't been put on me
I wonder
If I'm just too much for you
Wonder If my kiss don't make you just
Wonder
What I got next for you
What you want to do? (Do)

Take a chance to recognize that this could be yours
I can see, just like most guys that your game don't please
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm a make you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe
Why don't you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe

I'm a make you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe
Why don't you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Sugar Gimme Some...

2007-03-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

Uh huh
Yeah
Aw man I got a sweet tooth, can you dig it
After this one you gon need a root canal then
love sugar all of it
This one for all the clean, decent women
Lay it on me girl
Pay Close Attention

She put that sugar on my tongue
Shes gonna
Gimme gimme some
She put it right there on my tongue (Sweet Sweet, Lover Lover)
Right there on my tongue (She turns me on, like no other)

And gimme some of your butter pecan
Put it right there on tip of my tongue, hold it
Right jeeeah
Cuz baby, if I bite you
I bet you like it
French Vanilla's a hell of a flavor for me
With strawberries, two cherries and whipped cream
The best things are the wet dreams
And uh, the rest is just a flick without a sex scene
Orally, I speak the truth
Cuz the blacker the berry
The sweeter the juice
Cuz, Florida oranges and Georgia peaches
When they nice and ripe, they the best for eatin'
Southern boys we crave for old slice of pie after they main course
So if you game for it
I came for it
I got a thing for ya
That I can't ignore

She put that sugar on my tongue, tongue
Yippie Yippie, Yum Yum
Goodie goodie gum drop
Put me in a tongue lock
Did it till my body went numb, numb
Laid her on her back, back
Turned her round, gave her bottom a smack, smack
She's a woman from the block with the best of weave
But I won't stop till I'm pullin out tracks, tracks
It was lust at first sight
And she couldn't help sayin that she wanted to get with me
And my size was just right
Cuz she wanted a man with a little sec-ur-ity
Said I been around the world twice
And my name ring bells from Atlanta to Sic-i-ly
Said she wanted it all night
So put the bubbles in the tub and Ludacris and me

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeeeah Yeeeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah

Sweetie you look so incredible
So delicious and so damn edible
All I need is some honey or syrup
With a lil' butter to rub down all your curves
And no need for the lemonade
Just a twist of lime and some grape Kool-AidCan I call you Caramel?
Cuz I'm bout to go coo-coo to taste your Coco Puffs
One bowl ought to fill me up
But that milk gotta be cold enough
So supper time that'll hold me up
I might choke myself if I don't slow it up, but
Honey, you look like a honeydew melon
Or strawberry with the whipped cream filling
Of the top part of the peach cobbler
But uh, the fruit platter ought to do me better

Catch your wave

2007-03-26T13:01:00.000-07:00

In the middle of the night
That's when you caught my eye
I chased you round in memories
Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me
But hey

The clock's turning around
And you're still playing these games
It's such a waste to bring me down, down, down
Don't bring me down cause

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

When I turned sixteen
That's when I started to dream
I chased you round in memories
Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me
But hey

Well every princess has her knight
And I'm still in it for the fight
Not givin in, I'm gonna win, win, win
I'm gonna win cause

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

I'm never gonna let you go

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go
I'll never let you go
Alright!

2007-03-05T11:55:00.000-08:00

Classic song I love it :D

You got the touch
You got the power

After all is said and done
You've never walked, you've never run,
You're a winner

You got the moves, you know the streets
Break the rules, take the heat
You're nobody's fool

You're at your best when when the goin' gets rough
You've been put to the test, but it's never enough

You got the touch
You got the power

When all hell's breakin' loose
You'll be riding the eye of the storm

You got the heart
You got the motion

You know that when things get too tough
You got the touch

You never bend, you never break
You seem to know just what it takes
You're a fighter

It's in the blood, it's in the will
It's in the mighty hands of steel
When you're standin' your ground

And you never get hit when your back's to the wall
Gonna fight to the end and you're takin' it all

You got the touch
You got the power

When all hell's breakin' loose
You'll be riding the eye of the storm

You got the heart
You got the motion

You know that when things get too tough
You got the touch

You're fightin' fire with fire
You know you got the touch

You're at your best when when the road gets rough
You've been put to the test, but it's never enough

You got the touch
You got the power

You got the touch
You got the power

Comedy

2007-02-28T22:01:00.000-08:00

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN (A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE)
I know I'm not going to understand women.I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and STILL be afraid of a spider.

W O R D S
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day...30,000 to a man's 15,000.The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

WIFE VS. HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument and neither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?""Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

WHO DOES WHAT
A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.The wife s aid, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."The husband said, "You are in charge of cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."So she fetched the Bible, and opened the Ne w Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says..........
"HEBREWS"

WOMAN'S PERFECT BREAKFASTShe's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box.Her daught er is on the cover of Business Week.Her boyfriend is on the cover of Playgirl.And her husband is on the back of the milk carton.

WOMEN'S REVENGE "Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet, I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse."So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked."No," she replied, " but my husband refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally."

MARRIAGE SEMINARWhile attending a Marriage Seminar dealing with communication, Tom and his wife Grace listened to the instructor, "It is essential that husbands and wives know each others likes and dislikes."He addressed the man, "Can you name your wife's favorite flower?"Tom leaned over, touched his wife's arm gently and whispered, "It's Pillsbury, isn't it?

CREATION A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time."The wife responded, "Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!

The Silent Treatment
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:0 0 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it.The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5: 00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

K for all you guys thinkin your gonna get the best of you gurl.....ummm mI wouldnt be to sure about that.....

2007-02-27T14:13:00.001-08:00

I a whisper of silk, I found myself face to face with easily the most stunning woman I have ever seen (Having been a model and workin in fashion yea, I guees you get the point). She is small and delicate (but hard enough on the insides, not the one who ppl could push around), thick black hair tumbled down in ringlets past her shoulders, framing eyes that were dark and secretive. er face is beautiful, her features perfectly formed and immediately unforgettable....

2007-01-08T20:41:00.000-08:00

Have you considered the water which you drink? Do you bring down the rain, or do we? If it was our will, we could have made it salty; why do you not then, give thanks?

2007-01-05T13:05:00.001-08:00

could be a wolf in disguise...
I could be an angel in your eyes...
Never judge a book by it's cover...

I could be one or the other

Speakin my own thoughts...

2006-12-30T19:03:00.000-08:00

Shoot me
Tear me apart
Torture me
Wound me
Hurt me
Abuse me
And the list just goes on.....

I will still love you....

there was so much I wanted to write in here but I guess I will just leave that for another time....still hurtin

~fuck this

2006-12-30T18:57:00.001-08:00

2006-12-30T18:56:00.001-08:00

Icy love

2006-12-30T18:54:00.000-08:00

Lettin go....

2006-12-26T16:00:00.001-08:00

Let me be

just a fucked up world aint it?....ppl say they are there but itz all bulshit....not hollding on to anything, why should I? im just goignt ot get hurt in the end.....fuck it....

just lettin everything go....everyone....

I'm going, I'm going.....gone!

2006-12-20T11:00:00.000-08:00

None caN c0mpAre cuz I cAnt keep my eyEs ofF thAt GuRL...

Neva Fret, Neva Frown

2006-12-12T14:18:00.000-08:00

When exhaustion gets tired
When agony doubles over in pain
When defeat waves a white flag
I will still be here

2006-12-12T13:59:00.000-08:00

My tea's gone cold, I'm wonderin why i got out of bed at all.the morning rain drops on my window and i can't see at all. And even if i could it'd all be grey. but your picture on my wall.It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad.....

Me against the world...

2006-12-04T11:45:00.000-08:00

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

every step that I take is another mistake to you
i've become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this all
I want to do is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought
I would be has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take
but I know I may end up failing too
but I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

Time marches: Seasons change...

2006-12-01T15:21:00.000-08:00

Random gibberish

2006-11-19T22:04:00.001-08:00

Flip why do you gotta be such a hater yogz? :P
Thank Tunnu for explaining the whole 'destiny's child theory'
Random why the hell do u gotta be so random?
J..no comment :P
Laila, I want my donair!
Maria flip i need ur poli sci notes!
Mariam I still do not know how to spell ur name
Lateefah, be original!
Marc, flippin sweet hair bro
Yahya, I kinda want my 'A Feast for crows' back
Eric, what the hell is wrong wit you? :P
Solmon, wheres my present?
Jacob, why must u be such a hater?
Mario, Aman, Marqus, Tony why cant we all just get along :P

Lovin it...

2006-11-17T11:36:00.000-08:00

Im out the fight the Devil,

but never fought myself

Read a thousand books,

but never read myself

My soul is starving it needs to be fed,

lord I need your help

Hell with the devil,

my biggest enemy is myself

2006-11-14T09:54:00.000-08:00

The way her eyes catch the light,
no treasure in the world can match that sight...

*sigh*

You...

2006-11-10T10:39:00.000-08:00

Black hair long and woven with nightshade, black robes trailing from her slender form, a whisper of silk. She is beautiful, her face delicate and finely wrought, her brown skin seems almost ethereal...

Equisitely formed, lithe and deicate, yet stronger than steel.

~Love, it is not always wise. It can lead one to great folly, but we follow our heart...where ever it takes us, do we not?

Everything you want

2006-11-06T11:41:00.000-08:00

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why

~Hurtin~

If I die.

2006-11-03T11:40:00.000-08:00

If I die,
Please dont Judge me,
Because I will not judge you.

And if I Die,
Please don't judge me,
For I would die for you....

Random

2006-10-30T10:35:00.000-08:00

Sitting in class with Maria n Laila talkin there gurl talk, why is it that they sit on both sides of me n talk to one another???? grrrr :P........A freind emailed me and asked me why is was that gurls are more into kids than guys n well that was just roughly what he asked, so bringing this up with several of my female freinds I have come to this conclusion.......so u know who this is for n I am just going to put it up on my blog n u can read it from here kape????

I believe that since women are limited in how many children they can produce to perpetuate their genes, they have a greater investment in their children than do men, who can sire many offspring. For the sake of her and her children women tend to value characteristics such as size and strength, oh and monetary resources. This being so a man who can continue to provide resources for his family is one who is dependable, stable, 'masculine (big and strong), intelligent, and in good health (unless he is older...but wealthier, flippin gold diggers).

Love

2006-10-06T11:51:00.000-07:00

Love....it is a mystery.....such a broad word....nobody rweally understand it do they???

People have been known to lie, cheat, steal, and even kill in it's name, yet no one knows quite what it is...

Remember Me?

2006-10-02T09:23:00.000-07:00

My name is Gossip.
I have no respect for justice.
I maim without killing. I break hearts and ruin lives.
I am cunning, malicious and gather strength with age.
The more I am quoted, the more I am believed.
I flourish at every level of society.
My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me
because I have no name and face.
To track me down is impossible. The harder you try, the more elusive I become.
I am nobody's friend.
Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never the same.
I topple governments and wreck marriages. I ruin careers and cause sleepless nights,
heartaches and indigestion. I spawn suspicion and generate grief. I make innocent people cry in their pillows.....Even my name hisses.
I am called GOSSIP. Office gossip, party gossip, school gossip.
I make headlines and headaches.

Remember before you repeat a story, ask yourself; is it true? is it fair? is it necessary??? If not, do not repeat it ( the Prophet Muhammed (saw) said "it is like eating the flesh of your own brother(sister)")

~Great minds discuss ideas...Average minds discuss events...Shallow minds discuss people.....So which one are you?

2006-09-30T16:07:00.000-07:00

A part of me died last night....

~i'm tired of being what you want me to be

feeling so faithless lost under the surface~

I'm feeling so empty

~I don't know what you're expecting of me

put under the pressure

of walking in your shoes

every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've become so numbi can't feel you there

become so tired

so much more aware~

"The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.The one who kneels to the Almighty can stand up to anything."

A Simple Hello...

2006-09-29T12:06:00.001-07:00

I have always felt sympathy and compassion for those that I see at school walking all alone, for the ones who sit in the back of the room while everyone looks and makes fun of them or just simply ingnores them. At first I never did anything about it. Guess I figured that someone else would. I did not take the time really to think about the depth of their pain. Then one day I thought, what if I did take a moment out of my busy schedule to simply say hello to someone without a friend or stop and chat with some eating by thereself. And I did, I do. It feels so good to brighten up someone else's life. How do I know one would ask? Simple, for years ever since elementary I was in their shoes...until the day came a simple hello from a stranger changed my life forever.....

So I ask you as a Friend, a Brother, a Stranger....To take time out, I know we are all busy...places to go ppl to see, of your life and to say hello for you never know what it will lead to.....

2006-09-29T11:50:00.000-07:00

K umm where to start???

Well Ramadan is not going on that well...I am struggling to wake up at a time that in any other time of the year I have no trouble waking up.....ummm actually I just going to leave off on this topic there is just too much to it......

School, again just going to leave off too much stress, 3 exams next week!
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Really just so many emotions going through em I do not know how to control, explain or anything....:S

There is so much I wanted tot write on my blog but never had the chance and now here I am with the chance to write it all down...but I cannot recall anything I had wanted to write...Fleeting thoughts......

Wow this is rather a pointless entry......

~My tea's gone cold,
I'm wonderin why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain drops on my window and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad~

2006-09-26T09:38:00.000-07:00

k weirdest dream...so weird that I am hesitant to tell it but I have to just get it out cuz it will not leave my head!

okay here it goes.....

Im at meyokumin (my elementry and favorite place to play bball) shooting some hoops....Anyways ill just skip all this n get to the main part k so basically I end up playing ball with all the random ppl I hae played basketball with, so a whole bunch of white boys, lil kids, 2 native kids, some afro-american guys, n about 5-6 azn guys.....n then watching us play are all the random gurlz I have ever talked to, n they where wearing what they where when I spoke with them...so alot of arab, white, black, n azn, and a couple of brown gurls. What the wore varied some I spoke to at the beach, some in school, work, mall, wherever I went.....and ya I don't really recall the rest at the moment but yea....as I have sayed before really weird

2006-09-24T13:21:00.001-07:00

If you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d's
oh why do i live this way(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzie
oh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

in the club on the late nite feelin right
lookin tryin to spot somethin real nice
looking for a lil shorty i noticed
so that i can take home (i can take home)
she can be 18 18 wit a attitudeor 19 kinda snotty actin real rude
but as long as you a thicky thicky thick
girl you know that its on (you know that its on)
i peep somethin comin towards me on the dance floor
sexy and real slow (hey)
sayin she was peepin and i dig the last video
so when nelly can we go?
how could i tell her no
her measurements was 36 25 34
feel iti like the way you brush your hair
and i like those stylish clothes you wear
i like the way the light hit the ice and glare
and i can see you boo from way over there

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

face a body front and back, don't know how to act
without the vouchers on the boots shes bringing nothin back
you should feel the impact shop on plastic where the sky's is the limit
and them haters can't get past that
watch me as i gas that four dot six range
watch the candy-paint change every time i switch lanes
it feels strange now
makin a livin off my brain instead of caine now
i got the title from my momma put the whip in my own name now
damn shit done changed now
running credit checks with no shame now
i feel the fame now come oni can't complain no moreshit i'm the man now
in and outta my own town(i'm getting pages)
out of new jersey from courtney b
tellin me about a party up in n y cand can i make it damn right
i'll be on the next flight
payin cash first class sittin next to vanna white

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

check check
yo i know somethin you don't know
and i got somethin to tell ya
you won't believe how many people straight doubted the flowmost said that i was a failure
but now the same mutha fuckaz askin me for dough
and i'm yellin i can't help ya
yo nelly can we get tickets to the next show
hell naw you for real

hey yo now that i'm a fly guyand i fly high
niggas wanna know why why i fly by
but yo its all goodrange rover all wood
do me like you should
fuck me good suck me good
we be them stud niggas
wishin you was niggas
poppin like we drug dealers
simply cuz she bug mackin
honey in the club me in the benzi see a cutie tellin me to leave wit you and your friends
so if shorty wanna knock we knockin to this
and if shorty wanna rock we rockin to this
and if shorty wanna pop we poppin the crisshorty wanna see the ice then i ice the wrist
city talk nelly listen
nelly talk city listen
when i fuck fly bitches
when i walk pay attention
see the ice on the wrist
niggas starin at the glist
honeys lookin no they wish
come on boo gimme kiss c'mon

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

if you wanna go and take a ride wit me
we're 3-wheelin in the 4 with the gold d'soh why do i live this way
(hey) (must be the money)
if you wanna go and get high wit me
smoke an L in the back of the benzieoh why must i feel this way
(hey) (must be the money)

2006-09-24T13:21:00.000-07:00

Girl, he simping (Simpin)
I walk up in the club with a limpin (Limpin)
God listen, what you gonna do, with this pimpin
What you gonna do, with this pimpin
Girl, I'm a call ya (Call ya)
Later on tonight or tomorrow ('Morrow), now follow
What you gonna do, with this baller
What you gonna do, with this baller

I don't wanna know....

2006-09-24T13:07:00.000-07:00

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't mean to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Baby taught you better then me (taught you better then me)
Then why you fall asleep (why you fall asleep)
Shove 'em off and stay, what you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me (Stay away from me baby)

......

2006-09-24T13:01:00.000-07:00

Somewhere in this darkness
there is a light I can't find
maybe I'm just blind
to see what's in front of my eyes
I don't want to lie
there's an other world inside of me
that you may never see
there's secrets in this life
I can't hide
and I just need some time
to patch me up inside
but I can't take me
inside and hide
everything I am
I can't be anymore
and even if I could be me
I would give up everything
if only for your good
I'll say goodbye to all my troubles
I'm coming closer to the edge
kiss me while I'm still alive
kiss me while I kiss the sky
let me die on my own terms
and now I'll follow my own way
maybe try to life on an other day...

Taste of Edmonton...Me n Tunnu

2006-09-23T15:55:00.000-07:00

K days pics/ n some from a Taste of Edmonton

2006-09-23T15:45:00.000-07:00

2006-09-23T14:41:00.000-07:00

Born to be hated, dying to be loved

2006-09-23T11:14:00.000-07:00

As one might have noticed I have been putting all these pics up just to get my mind off of things, but it seems some of these pics just bring back those painful memories....I am fasting yet I'm so stressed and angry.

I have not slept since the night before and quite frankly I am not tired at all, weird is it not? As I type I am getting ready for the funeral of one of my best friends, a friend whom I have known since childhood.

The first day of Ramadan and already some much has happened, makes you shudder to think what else is in store.....

The Three Thousand outside the gates of Qohor

2006-09-22T19:43:00.000-07:00

2006-09-22T19:42:00.000-07:00

2006-09-22T19:41:00.001-07:00

Submission

2006-09-22T19:41:00.000-07:00

Jaqen H'ghar

2006-09-22T19:40:00.000-07:00

The sweet taste of revenge

2006-09-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

House Greyjoy

2006-09-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

2006-09-22T19:37:00.000-07:00

Lord Commander of the Nights Watch

2006-09-22T19:32:00.000-07:00

Paying the Iron price

2006-09-22T19:31:00.000-07:00

Crows eye

2006-09-22T19:30:00.001-07:00

The Queen of Love and Beauty

2006-09-22T19:30:00.000-07:00

The Black fish

2006-09-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

In search of prey

2006-09-22T19:25:00.000-07:00

House Stark

2006-09-22T19:24:00.000-07:00

House Lannister

2006-09-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

House Stark

2006-09-22T19:14:00.000-07:00

2006-09-22T19:10:00.000-07:00

Will justice prevail?

2006-09-22T19:09:00.000-07:00

The Tower of Joy...in sad times

2006-09-22T19:08:00.000-07:00

Stark vs. Lannister

2006-09-22T19:07:00.000-07:00

Cruel fate

2006-09-22T19:06:00.000-07:00

The Fields of Fire

2006-09-22T19:05:00.000-07:00

2006-09-21T19:31:00.000-07:00

This is how I roll....

2006-09-21T19:26:00.000-07:00

Summer camp

2006-09-21T18:16:00.000-07:00

2006-09-21T18:14:00.000-07:00

This reminds me of you Mahmoud :P

Me against the World

2006-09-21T15:59:00.000-07:00

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
Sitting alone, wondering, wishing
Dreaming.
You laugh and mock him
But do we not all wonder, wish and dream?

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
Sitting alone, crying and breaking
Alone.
You see him. Do you care?
Why dont you comfort others when you want comfort in your tears.

That guy, there.
Do you see him?
With others, but another person.
Laughing and mocking others
Still alone.
You know he is putting up a wall. Do you not care?

That guy. There.
Do you see him?
Still alone. Empty, feeling nothing.
Broken.
You still dont help. Do you not care?

That guy, there.
He used to love, he used to feel, he used to care
What happened? He's now like you.
Doesnt care.

That guy, there.
Do you know him?
I do.
That guy there,
Thas me...

2006-09-20T20:30:00.000-07:00

Breaking my habits

2006-09-20T13:53:00.000-07:00

I don't want to be the one battles always choose
Because inside I realize that I am the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I have come this way
I know its not alright

~Linkin park

Do you know?

2006-09-20T13:33:00.000-07:00

Do You know what is like to make yourself feel pain
Just trying to ease the hurting inside
Do you know what its like to put yourself through hell
Just so a few secrets you could hide

Do you know what its like to hurt so much
That every morning and you just wish to die
Do you know what is like to get home at night
And have nothing to do but cry

Do you know what is like to give your heart to someone
And have it thrown back at you
Do you know what is like to have a broken heart
That just seems like it can never mend

Do you know what it feel like to get a hug
From someone who really means it
Do you know what it feels like to not get that one hug
It kills you beyond mortal understanding

Do you know what its like to be so alone
And all you need is a confidant, a friend
Do you know what its like to hurt so much
That you just want to make it all end

Do you know what its like to be standing there
On the crossroads of life and death
Do you know what its like to make the decision
To take your last and final breath

Do you know what I go through every day
No! How I feel you dont have a clue
Dont even try to understand my life
Because I refuse to be judged by you

Garfield

2006-09-18T15:37:00.000-07:00

Garfield

2006-09-18T15:12:00.000-07:00

Eid pics

2006-09-17T14:04:00.000-07:00

Eid pics

2006-09-17T13:59:00.000-07:00

Random Eid pics

2006-09-17T13:56:00.000-07:00

On the DL

2006-09-15T14:50:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna know,
If your playing me keep it on the low,
Cuz my heart can't take it anymore,
And if your creeping please don't let it show,
Oh baby I don't wanna know.....

Peace through Pratice...

2006-09-15T14:41:00.000-07:00

Shaken

2006-09-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

Argh just so fed up wit ppl! just because im injured it does not mean I am dead so save your sympathy for I want none of it. There are those who say "Ill always be there for you" yet when u try talking to them all u get is "hold on a min", "can u call me back", "im busy right now", "im busy" sounds familiar? I get it everyday yet despite how annoyed I get I never let it show, I just suck it up n act as if it where nothing but it really eats you up on the inside...Everytime I lock myself up in my fortress of solitude (reluctantly) she manages to pry me out every single time, my defenses that can hold of whole armies of humanity stand no chance against her.....

Further more why is it so hard to find a friend who will just remain a friend and will not end up liking you???

I can feel this bitterness creeping inside of me, I had thought I had banished it but here it is...I can see it on the horizon...Everywhere I look.

There is a dark side in everyone, and I can feel mine creeping up around the corners...

U got to love Garfield!

2006-09-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

Plains of Africa

2006-09-09T21:14:00.001-07:00

2006-09-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

Can you see me in the backround?

2006-09-09T21:13:00.002-07:00

The setting of the Sun

2006-09-09T21:13:00.001-07:00

My island of solitude

2006-09-09T21:13:00.000-07:00

The Mighty Nile

2006-09-09T21:12:00.002-07:00

Shadows of Faith

2006-09-09T21:12:00.001-07:00